Monday, 7 January 2013

Life's Brief Candle

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
   Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
   To the last syllable of recorded time,
   And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
   The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
   Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
   That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
   And then is heard no more: it is a tale
   Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
   Signifying nothing.

By Shakespeare

Shakespeare. He was a great person. I love his poems. I love literature so much. And this literature things has made me fall in love with Shakespeare. I've recently read the story of Macbeth. The poem above was taken from the story of Macbeth. A great story of a person who wants to achieve his dream but in a wrong way. Macbeth was also manipulated by the words of witches.

I don't know what I want to share right now. I'm just too confused. The last two weeks I was busy finding job but I ain't got any job. I was waiting for a call but I still didn't get one. Am I hoping too much for that job? I question myself whether I suit that job.. Whether I am capable to do that job.. As I waited for that job, the 'waiting hour' was ain't fun.. ain't good and I ain't like it at all.. But I still hope that I can get that job.. Hope.... (,")

What I'm trying to speak out by the poem above is about LIFE. Is it rational if we say Life is as short as a life of a candle?? I'm trying to figure out what Shakespeare trying to deliver from this poem.. For me, life is very long ahead.. Even two seconds are such a long moment for someone to breath. Each human has 24hr a day to spent their life.. But many complained that they ain't got enough time a day to settle everything. The idea is put our priority first to deal well with our life.

I know everything that I'm saying right now are mixed up.. I'm a bit blur a moment ago, so I wash my face to fresh up myself.. Okay now, talking bout life.. No doubt and don't think too deep.. Just live your life.. aren't we all are sapos to do that.. just face it, nobody can lead our life accept for ourselves.. we are the one who in charge to control our life in a way that God has provided for us.. :)

to choose the right path is ain't easy.. but, I believe that every decision that we made were planned by God..

sometimes we need to choose the wrong option before we can get to pick the perfect decision ever.

I'm just saying that we need to control everything that happened around us.. we cannot let a small mistake ruin our whole life. Plus, if we didn't act seriously about the important matter to be decide in our life, we might throw ourselves into hell as everything will go wrong if we done wrong.. 

Take a step break, look back and look forward.. think about our the past mistakes. will we ever do it again if we have the chance? then think about the mysterious future, do you want to fill your future with the same old mistakes and attitude? We always want the best for our life, so the best decision should be made with the right thinking. It ain't hard if you have faith in yourself.. :)

Life is not a walking shadow.. Life is a walking human.. whom go through a journey until they reach the end of a great experience ever.. Milk the moment and we will find that bitter things were actually taste sweet if we have went through it without hesitate or any slight regret.. Life is like 'fill our empty cup'.. :)

------------------------- DEEP THINKING--------------------------

Wednesday, 2 January 2013

Farewell 2012, Hello 2013

Year of 2012 has come to an end a day ago.. I celebrate the New Year's Eve at my home sweet home with my lovely family.. We were having BBQ .. wheee~ and I was super full as I ate lots of meat.. (chicken opkos) hehehe. and yea, the picture above is the pic of me gathering with my family at Tawau.. sobbs~ sobbs~ my brothers are not here to be with us.. nvm la.. as long as we are closer in the heart thou we apart b'cos of the distance.. aiseh~ hahahaha..

And how do I ended my 2012.... thinking mood : drinking coke, watching tv, sitting on couch while surfing the net.. hahaha.. FB-ing~ yeaaa~ thats how I celebrate my New Year.. I did do the countdown.. hehehe. Did I sleep early?? Yeah, I did... Amazing.. hahaha.. ok, I think I'm goin crazy here, I laugh too much, right..? hurmmm... and yea, I said too much 'hurmmm' .. what the?? :-/

As usual, thou its New Year, I'd still got up late.. :D 10 o'clock in the morning is okay right.. :) I went to town with my sys, bought some groceries and I got a new shoes.. Neli sponsored it for me.. #LUCKY ..hehehe. Perhaps I can use that shoes for work.. Yeah, I am hoping that I can get a job.. #hopesobad .. Hurmmm, I'll try to seek for job tomorrow, I hope I can get what I wanted.. Help me Jesus.. :(

So, talking about 2012, through the year, I have experienced lots of things.. Especially at school. There were things that I regret, things that I was grateful and feel blessed also things that I took it for granted.. I did a lot of mistakes but I can't say much about good deeds, only angels know my goodness in this world.. :) 
I'd learn to move on now, its a new year so I guess I need to make a new start. My past is a history and my future is a mystery. To discover the mystery of my upcoming adventure of life, I need to reform myself to be bold and more passion. Nevertheless, I need to take note one important fundamental in order to be success

Keeping up the positive mental attitude...

Since I have a very good basic of Moral Education, I guess I have no difficult to seize my knowledge.. :) I try my best to think in a good and matured way in every step that I want to take, it ain't easy but this very new year, I would like to trust my gut and walk in the way that Jesus has prepared for me.. I hope so.. God willing..

2013, please be nice to me. :)

Since its 2013, I would like to make my thirteen wishes become true this year.. God willing. On top of all, I have one main goal this year #AZAM2013, which is,

This very blessed year, I would like to be more faithful to Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ..
I also would like to enter University and become a real college student, if God wills it, I wanna further my studies abroad. #GodWilling
And my thirteen wishes are :

  1. I want a job and at least work for 8 months. (if it possible, I would like to be a temporary teacher at a private school)
  2. I want to save money for my studies. I want to have at least RM3K in my acct.
  3. I want to collect more storybooks for my collection. (Novels : Malay and English)
  4. I want to be able to speak Mandarin.
  5. I want to transform my look and be pretty. #HAHAHAHA (Appearance)
  6. I want to get an excellent *flying colors* result of STPM which can make me one of the best student in my school and make my family proud of me.
  7. I would like to have Sony Xperia J as my mobile phone.
  8. I want to be able to cook by myself.
  9. I want to have birthday party with all of my best friends.
  10. I want to be a good daughter and a good youngest sister.
  11. I want to build up my mastery in speaking English.
  12. I want to have a vacation. (Outside Tawau)
  13. I want to be independent and more mature in any matter of my life.
Fheewww~ that's a very long list of my wishes for this year.. Anyway, the best word for it is #FIGHTING..!! yeah, I will try my best to make my dreams come true..I will do my best to achieve each of my every little wishes.. I pray that God will bless me and help me.. :)

Last but not least, all my love for 2012, thank you Jesus for the opportunity by letting me breath in the year of 2013.. A great passion and faith from me to go through this new adventurous year.. :)