Take Me Away From Here

A few weeks passed.. All of sudden my life wasn't the same as before.. Everything feels so hard.. It was like a big stone hit me, like there was an earthquake and pushing me down.. I was drowning..

No one ever tot that I will face this kind of situation.. I can't even explain it in words.. I was speechless.. I tried my best to avoid from meeting my friends.. I'm just too shame to face them.. I wasn't the same as they know me before.. I wasn't good enaf to be their friend.. I could be the worst person that they ever know in this world..

To my surprise, my best friend has left me.. Without even saying goodbye.. I was damn so sad.. Why did you have to leave me alone, at this crucial moment.? The time where I need you so bad to be here with me.. To accompany me. To give me motivation.. I need you now.. :'(

Today should be the day that my problem ended. But, there's only 50-50 chance, whether today could be the end of my problem or the continuous period of my problem.. How can I beg God to throw away this problem?? I don't want it.. I hate it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will I continue to live like this?? Can I stand on my ground? No one have the answer..

The only thing that I could say is please don't leave me... Whoever read this.. I need someone..

I miss my dearest friends so much.. Whom I share my laugh and happiness.. 

But for now, I can't share my sadness with them.. 

They are too young to be part in this situation..

I won't let them to be next to me.. 

Maybe I should face this thing alone..

Perhaps, they will someone more better than me.

To replace me..